ambivalence

hmm ok so i've received a few papers back today...

chinese: 85! yay i got my 4.0! first time in 3 years! =)

chem: 79 for the paper... and i got 79 overall... heh missed my 4.0 by 1 mark =(

physics: 51... *emo cries slits wrist*

SS: nearly failed my first question. got full marks for the 2nd. in the end got 23! =P

and math da bomb! mr vijay came in to tell us our class ranks one of the lowest in the batch! i dun think he meant to suan us or anything, but i think he's kinda frustrated we can't do well. some ppl are pretty unhappy with what they're hearing... and i think both sides have their reasons la... w.e the case maybe i got a 2.4, but i'll still try to remain optimistic!

koonz, if u're reading this, cheer up! and any 3K-ians (though i think koonz is the only one)

so basically i did well for the papers other ppl sucked in and i sucked at the papers other ppl owned in. wah dunno what to think now... damn confused >.<

getting back hist + lit + eng tmr... and these are the 3 papers im damn 紧张 about... gah...

i'll bite cheeyeow if i fail.

jap food!

yay went to sakae with hq cheeyeow and jonathan today!

we sat there and ate for like 3 hours. the food's not bad la... though cheeyeow would have preferred the usual servings of a few cows...

oh and cheeyeow treated me to half the buffet cost! =D

yipee i love them! this makes being 15 really cool for me! thx guys! =)

desolate

sigh screwed up my lit paper...

so much for ending my EOYs on a high note...

managed to take my mind off on shide's nintendo... damn fun la!

shide if u're reading this, thx for today! or else i'll most prob just emo and rot away...

Sigh oh well in life, there's always the ups and downs. since there's a down, i'll most probably see the up soon! maybe... maybe... i dunno...

just trying to console myself...













i feel wasted.

pathos

I.found.physics.easy.

Oh.my.god.

I was thinking how happy Burg must have been when he saw the paper...

Anyways lit paper is tmr! The final paper and the one i wish to do well in the most! I seem prepared and yet I can't help but think how high the benchmark would be set at when we sit for the same paper as the litRA peeps... Yeah I know I shouldn't compare but... Ah well =]

Sigh. EOYs. Pathos. =[]

Chemistry?

chem·is·try /ˈkɛməstri/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[kem-uh-stree] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun, plural -tries.

sympathetic understanding; rapport: the astonishing chemistry between the actors.

any or all of the elements that make up something: the chemistry of love.

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uhhh nope im pretty sure this isn't what chemistry is all about...

不值得

Ordeal

The mass of black swirl in my mind. Seemingly obscure, yet strangely familiar.

Salad. That's what I had for dinner last night. Yes, that's it. I'm attributing this senselessness to it. Word salad, that's what's going on.

The classroom has transmogrified. I was no longer safe. This is a struggle to survive. Armed with a ballpoint, I sieved out my prey - the strange-looking creatures who term themselves 'equations'.

Unfathomable. Enigmatic. The way they're born to be.

The clock ticks, and with it, the rhythmic pounding of my heart. My attempt at concealing this trepidation has failed. The enemy grins sardonically, as if taunting me, feeding upon my despair and thriving upon it.

Soon, perspiration superseded ink and the questions blurred even further. I forced the nib onto the paper but the sheet was blank. I established a connection at last.

Finally I clear my mind; only as the arbiter cleared his throat.